I met a new guy here in school. At first, nothing fell off my chest. I didn't think about me, myself having a crush on him or him having a crush on me. I just hang-out with him and being friends to him. It was cool being with him. We have some same abilities, like dancing, singing, drawing(but he's better than me). And at the same time, we have some not-the same- abilities. Like being "SMART", or like answering correctly to the teacher and speaking in english FLUENTLY. These things really did not matter to me. As long as we are friends, it doesn't matter. We also love telling jokes. We tell jokes everytime.If we don't have things to do.
Ofcourse in school, there are "teasing- groups" you know what i mean. Students or even teachers tease others with their LOVE TEAMS, or crushes. I was teased to him, but it did not last long. THANK YOU LORD!. He was also teased to my classmates. It was a big hit for him, because his new. I could tell you, his not that handsome or cute, but his CHARMING when he smiles. Times gone by, one of my closest friend in school, was teased because of the rumors that he likes him. I just laughed about it because i thought it wasn't true. All of a sudden, I was shocked because it was TRUE! I was really shocked because, her, liking him? Are you sure? I just teased them and teased and teased and teased.
I didn't notice, I was already hurt. I just learned that I was feeling not that good. That he always comes in my mind and think of him. There were rumors that he likes me, still. I said are you sure? I want to believe, I want to accept, but I just can't. I don't understand why. That I could tell him directly that I like him just the way he likes me. I want to but I can't 'cause I know I am gonna hurt someone. I never new i'm gonna feel this way to him.
I don't wanna change our friendship and I don't wanna hurt someone even though it is me who is hurting myself. And i don't wanna hurt______________________
to be continued =>
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